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it's 98 degrees [not the band! HAHA] right now and i'm reeeaaaaallllyyyy sweating. the doors are opened so i had to lock sid in my room. he keeps on meowing. i feel bad. =\ i have this nirvana song stuck in my head. i was playing the unplugged album while i was building a fort in my room, and then the last song came on and you know.. stuck in my head. i've been singing it to sid.. but like "where did you pur last night" and stuff. i'm so cute. he's so cute. tomorrow is my second injection in my 3-shots of immunity for hepititis b. it's required in oregon. it wasn't in california, or utah, but here.. yes. i can't wait until this heat wave is over.
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| i *heart* msn. |
[05 Jul 2002|01:28pm] |
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i've been obsessed with hotmail recently. hale and i have been going into chats like 10-15 year olds, adult rooms, rp'ing rooms. he's someone i met in an adult rooms:
TeenierJj : hi,
åblë_¤_fírê : hi. how old are you?
TeenierJj : 32 male in st.louis ?
TeenierJj : u
åblë_¤_fírê : i'm only 21, female, portland.
TeenierJj : that doesnot matter, I know how to treat a lady
åblë_¤_fírê : i like those kind of men.
TeenierJj : how do you like to start ?
åblë_¤_fírê : i don't. usually the man does.
TeenierJj : I will start with taking your clothes off...
the rest will be censored for younger viewers. he was really dumb and i sort of feel sorry for him.. - sigh. -anyway, you assholes! my birthday is july 14th and you'd better send me an online card, or else i will have to kill you.
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| test results. |
[30 Jun 2002|07:32pm] |
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where to begin, where to begin.. ah, yes.. i know:
48 hours ago.. it was normal, nothing out of the ordinary was happening. surfin' the net, i was.. when all of a sudden, there was a pop-up add. do you know what this.. particular ad said?
do you use the restroom more than 8 times a day?
which got me thinking: do i? i mean, have you ever counted how many times you've taken a piss in a 24 hour period? neither have i! so i decided i would start. yes, yes. i charted how many times, and at what time i took a trip to 'the can', to see if i suffered from an overactive bladder, and here are my results:
1. 3:10 a.m.
2. 12:45 p.m.
3. 5:15 p.m.
4. 10:08 p.m.
so, i escaped for the evil clutches of an overactive bladder, but wait! four is half of eight, yes? when is it going to be five? six?.. SEVEN?! who knows. not i! but from now on, i'll think twice about drinking so many liquids.
my new favorite bot:
insides rott (6:16:07 PM): wassap g?
Austin Powers (6:16:08 PM): You are freaking me out!
and some quotes said to me for today:
Ovulatinq: HEY HALL!
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SoulboyAngel: Hey, Lauren what is Sam's screenname?
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FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I AM NOT EITHER OF THOSE PEOPLE! I AM -MEL-.
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| last night was bad. |
[22 Jun 2002|04:44pm] |
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last night, i somehow set derek off, and he started calling me fat, worthless, stupid, ugly.. you know.. insecurities off teenagers. and i yelled back, calling him an alcoholic, asking if he looked in the mirror lately, and about the worthless thing, he was all " you don't do anything! who works ten hours a day?!" and i replied "yeah, for once you're not being supported by your parents or a girlfriend" and stuff. he pissed me off so bad that i just got up in his face and yelled "shut up" and he stood and started coming towards me. my mom got inbetween us. after a couple of foot steps coming towards me, he pushed my mother aside and then did the same to me, pushed into the couch. after that, i think he sat back down i got back on the computer, then all of a sudden he came over and said "get offline. i'm waiting for a phone call from my mom." (which he really wasn't), and unhooked the phone line. he also said "get off of the computer. go to your room. get out of my face." and i argued, and he continued to call me names. finally, i grabbed my cup which was holding about two cups of water, and i was heading to my room.. and even then he was still calling me names. so you know what? i turned around and just splashed all of the water at him. and he looked so mad, and came towards me and held his whole arm back, clenching his hand into a fist. he pulled his arm back so hard that he hit the picture hanging on the wall behind him, breaking the whole thing. my mom of course came over after she saw him going towards me, but he let go his punch. it didn't hit me, only the wall and sort of my the side of my ribs. i'm not sure if he meant to do that or just missed. after he said i was worthless once more, i went to my room. i just sort of went to my bed and sat, i could hear my mom and derek's mumbling. after that was over, my mom came into my room and told me he kicked her, grabbed her my the throat (there's marks now) and slapped her twice. after she told me, she called her friend karyn and she let us come over. she's nice, and had a crossed eye. anyway, after we spent the night, derek (who was supposed to go to work today) was here watching tv. i just went to my room and heard them talking. i took a nap, and got awoken by my mom. she said "lets go get an animal!" and to make a long story short, i now have a little baby boy kitty. but i'm still mad. my mom said last night "that was it. he blew it. we're gonna move." and you know what?! they're all lovey-dovey today. god. i'm acting nice but i'm really fucking pissed at both of them. the end.
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[19 Jun 2002|07:45pm] |
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ok, so.. looking through my computer files cuz i'm bored, i found a pre-livejournal document of a journal. it has like 5 entries in it and the last one was january 25. my first entry was march 6, 2001. hah.
January 25, 2002
dear diary..
it's weird.. my foot is asleep again. i love writing stuff, then forgetting about it, then coming back to it and reading it. months and months since i last updated this. two more months until this has been a document for a year. well.. i like manymany more bands. i can't wait until i'm seventeen.. for the presents! heh! bye.
dokrusness.
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[19 Jun 2002|06:51pm] |
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i'm going to scooby doo tomorrow! i finally got someone to go with me. i'm actually going to use my own money. a job? no! but, when moving here, i was smart enough to pack a sheep piggy-bank with clinkities in it! all in all, it was 17 dollars, but i added the first ten to 20 dollars my mom gave me to buy a sims game. so.. yeah... speaking of the sims, i built a big-ass house for a family. do you know who the family consisted of?.. well, for the mother and father, i created sam and her asshole friend, vince, as them. there's four children, steve(whoisintheukrightnow), a random name of 'james', halley and i. it's wonderful.
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| there ain't no mountain high enough! |
[16 Jun 2002|05:23pm] |
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my mom is insane. she had this dancing music station playing on the tv, and she was like "COME CHA-CHA WITH ME! I'LL TEACH YOU HOW TO!" and i ran to my room and locked the door (well, held the doorknob in place, cuz it locks from the outside) and it was scary. i haven't eaten anything all day. strong will power?, you may ask yourself, but no.. my dear friend, the fact that the fridge is basically empty is to blame for my little diet.
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[09 Jun 2002|04:29pm] |
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sam named a kitten after me!
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[05 Jun 2002|08:57pm] |
oh, did i mention i've grown three inches? when i went to get my hep b shot last week, i got a physical. and i'm still the same weight. score.
- is now 5'3". don't laugh. -
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| another hot evening in clackamas, oregon. |
[02 Jun 2002|08:40pm] |
while looking at people's journals from my friend's page, i just realized i don't know a lot of people who're on it. but, as looking through the page, i saw belladonnafairy's hole icon and i love it. just out of randomness.
and, as watching harry potter over and over, i've decided to get rich, moving to england, and get an accent. i deeply want one, but my mom always says 'YOU HAVE AN AMERICAN ACCENT'. i don't want an american accent! damn it all!- practices english accent aloud. sucks. -
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| - taps temple. -kidneys! |
[02 Jun 2002|08:29pm] |
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(yesyes, in my head) hole - gutless |
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i lost my 'adore' cd. i've realized how much i suck at drawing, by doing a drama project. but, in my head, i've been going 'OMG I ACTUALLY DID HOMEWORK!'. and i'm not going to fail, cuz the classes i thought i would get F's in, i got D's. hey! it's passing. s'all good.
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[02 Jun 2002|08:28pm] |
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41 more days until my birthday! 4 - 1! yes! i love everyone.
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[22 May 2002|07:19pm] |
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[22 May 2002|06:15pm] |
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WOW THAT'S AMAZING I HAVE FOUR PEOPLE LISTED AS A FRIEND THAT DON'T LIST ME BACK. WOW.
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[22 May 2002|06:10pm] |
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- lookin' @ scooby doo sites/marking off days from the calender until may 28th (HARRYPOTTERCOMESOUTONVIDEO) =DDDDD -
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[29 Mar 2002|06:42pm] |
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i'm on my mom's computer, cuz mine is already packed up in the u-haul and we're leaving hers behind. we're leaving LOADS of stuff behind. yup. that is all cuz i'm not gonna stay on long.
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[28 Mar 2002|10:43pm] |
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those bastards at burger king didn't give me a fork for my cheesecake!-- oh, there it is. wait, IT'S A SPOON! i really see they cannot tell one inanimate object from another.
- is going to be a delirious little asshole today. -
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WHAT IF GOD WAS ONE OF US!
JUST A SLOB LIKE ONE OF US!
now i have that song stuck in my head.
i don't even know who it's by.
but, i used to have a friend named kye and whenever i would go over to house, his sister would play that over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
and over..
- pulls out hair. -
24 hours ago i was at mcdonalds, getting a cake that says "melina. may the force be with you" with a little star wars figure on top, from my friends. i had a 'going away' get together last night. it was a small thing, i only invited my closest friends. i'm sort of happy tonight, but really fatigued. i slept until 2:30 p.m. or some shit.. and went to bed at 1 a.m. i slept 13 1/2 hours! eheh.
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| heehee. |
[22 Mar 2002|07:22pm] |
For the record, you are:
58% Un-telligent!
which is normal since the current average is 60%.
Your evaluation is unique, however, so keep reading.
Here is the custom report of your personality that led our team of geeks to conclude (with confidence) that you are moderate but excitingly different:
"The subject shows an above average level of intelligence, and her sense of observation is one of her best qualities. Considering this, she shows a lot of potential, but that's only part of the equation.
"Finally, the subject displayed a insane and twisted (rather brilliant) sense of humor, a down and dirty sense of morality, and a hot shot self-confidence. The balance of these three traits is important; high levels of confidence, medium levels of morality, and a good level of humor make for the strongest individuals."
Final Score: 58% Un-telligent
i'm so special!
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[22 Mar 2002|04:38pm] |
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My Mormon name is Melvina Charlesye! [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<br \>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <p>My Mormon name is <b>Melvina Charlesye</b>!<br \><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/mormon/">What's yours?</a></p>
<b>IethargicaI</b>: "Utah. 3,000 wives can't be wrong."<-should be on a ut liscense plate
<b>RoyaI flesh</b>: i dont get it
i hope whoever is reading this DOES get it. |
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[22 Mar 2002|10:19am] |
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dude, s'more poptarts are the best! they make my teeth hurt.. but.. THEY ROCK!
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[20 Mar 2002|06:23pm] |
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dude, i've been off of yahoo for like 20 minutes and yet every now and then i hear someone talk. that's fucking ridiculous! i'm either going insane, or yahoo really sucks.
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| i don't care what any of you say! sam and i are geniuses. |
[16 Mar 2002|10:01pm] |
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k, here's our play for the song "disarm" by the smashing pumpkins.
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PIay Director: This is a Vagina Pains production. You are about to witness a play, written and directed by two masterminds named Mell and Sam.
PIay Director: ( Curtain opens. )
RoyaI flesh: - Disarms Mell; with a smile. =). And cuts her like she wants her to. Cuts that little child. -
IethargicaI: - Inside of her, is such a part of her. -
RoyaI flesh: - She realizes...how much the years burn.. -
IethargicaI: - Oh, the years burn. -
PIay Director: - Orchestra music que. -
IethargicaI: - Ambulates to atop of a nearby bench. -I USED TO BE A LITTLE BOY! - Pulls down pants, showing the scars.-
RoyaI flesh: She was so old in her shoes.. - A single tear streams down her cheek. -
IethargicaI: - Places a hand to heart. - What I choose is my choice!
RoyaI flesh: What's a boy supposed to do?! - Slams bible down on the bench table. -
IethargicaI: The killer in me.. - Takes out a knife, plunges it into a spectator's stomach. -
RoyaI flesh: Is the killer in me! - Suddenly has an axe in hand, and chops off a nearby head. -
RoyaI flesh: - Covered in blood, looks lovingly to mell. - My love..
IethargicaI: - Extends arm to hers, with a napkin. - My love..
PIay Director: - Stop of orchestra music. -
RoyaI flesh: - Sends a smile, over to Mell. -
IethargicaI: - Turns the tables. Disarms Sam with a smile. -
RoyaI flesh: - Eyes widen. Leaves her like she left her here. -
IethargicaI: - Sighs, turns away. Begins to wither in denial. -
RoyaI flesh: - Punches a tree. - The bitterness of one who's left alone!
IethargicaI: - Shakes head in despair. She realizes.. how much the years burn. -
RoyaI flesh: - Oh..how the years burn..clutches heart. Looking to the stars dejectedly. -
IethargicaI: - Shouts in an anguished tone. -BURN!
RoyaI flesh: BURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRN! - Dramatically falls onto the grass. -
PIay Director: - Orchestra music que. -
IethargicaI: - Leaps from her current position on the bench, landing on ground. Promulgates in an enliven tone. -I USED TO BE A LITTLE BOY!
RoyaI flesh: - Weeping fervently. looks to where that declaration came from, and begins a deft skip back toward mell. - So old in your shoes!
IethargicaI: What I choose is my voice! - Hands brought up to teared eyes. -
RoyaI flesh: - Chin quivers; reaching for her hand with a comforting nod, and a thoughtful raise of brow. -..What's a boy supposed to do..?
IethargicaI: The killer in me.. - Takes out shotgun, shoots at the local buildings' windows. -
RoyaI flesh: Is the killer in me! - Takes out a tamahawk; takes aim; and tosses it at a white-mans back. immediatly followed by a dance to summon rain .-
IethargicaI: - A sudden turn and cloud of dust mounts in front of her. A moment later it clears, revealing herself clad in cowboy gear. - My love..
RoyaI flesh: I'll send this smile over to you! - After applying warpaint on face, paints a smile on an arrow; arching back for a better leverage leanfull pose to shoot an arrow into mells leg. -
IethargicaI: - Loads rifle. -The killer in me is the killer in you - Pastes a faux smile upon face. - Send this smile over to you.
RoyaI flesh: The killer in me is the killer in YOU! - Sends a smile over to mell, in the form of a kick in her face. And a knife in her heart. -
IethargicaI: The killer in me is the killer in you!- Grasps face, where the kick landed. She then sends the smile back over to her in the motion of a rifle at Sam's heart. Pulls the trigger.. -
PIay Director: The killer in them was the killer in them, so they died. And the rain began to pour from the previous indian dance upon their now motionless corpses. The End.
PIay Director: This play was loosely adapted from the song "Disarm" by The Smashing Pumpkins.
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[22 Feb 2002|06:44pm] |
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i've been spending most of my day sleeping and eating. i didn't go to school cuz i got a three day suspension. -.- i'm really bored. i actually miss my school. it still awaits on monday. just a five day weekend, really. ahahahah. right now i'm really delirious, cuz i took a nap and get groggy like.. that. boredom. i've been reading through journals. i happen to start most of my sentences with 'i'. ahahahahaha. no one is online. this sucks. i'm beginning to not like aol as much because no one is on anymore! it was really nice weather, almost inspirational enough to make me wanna' go outside. ahah! i shudder at the thought. i haven't even bothered to fix my hair or anything. ehhh, tomorrow i'm going over to a friend's house for a barbecue fun. no, my friend isn't cooking. her dad is... well, not unless they want a charred house! ahah.
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| i'm not a woman, i'm a fucking force of nature. |
[16 Feb 2002|06:44pm] |
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i want to move to california! i want to move to california! I WANT TO MOVE TO CALIFORNIA!
I WANT TO MOVE TO CALIFORNIA!
i feel so sparkling when i'm clean. you guessed it! i actually took a shower. ahahah.
also, i keep on rubbing my lips with me' left hand, with my spazzed-out calluses (from guitar! ahaha!) and now they're practically raw. oh well, at least they're nice'n smooth.
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| i've made my bed, i'll lie in it. |
[13 Feb 2002|09:51pm] |
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lets see! aside from spending the last four day hacking up mucus and getting splitting headaches, it's been swell! i don't think my smoking habit made my cold any better! ANYWAY. to online issues. a friend, lynn, who i've known forever (online yeah).. well, three days ago we were back as friends. since in the last of june we got in a really big fight (along with hale) and i did something mean and she blocked me for ever and ever. yeah. over seven months apart and we're back together as friends. yay. we're cancerian twins. anyway, on to real life matters. i called landon an hour late and he wasn't home. i tried again a half an hour later and he STILL wasn't home. damn it. uhm like yeah. i'm going to move sometime in the future, it's either to colorado or california (i'm hoping california. i can take a train to see sam =D) since i was born there, my mom has a friend named alicia (who was the first one to hold me when i was born ahahahah!) still living there, and alicia wants us to move back there. but DEREK (mom's boyfriend) doesn't. that fucking sucks. the town in colorado is filled with (not being racist) mexicans. i'd feel out of place. but hey, white trash is in cali. it would be by san fran and by the ocean and ooooooo. i sooooo wanna' move back there. i like the higher risk of being killed! ahahah. i'm going to complain to my mom that i want to move back there. complaincomplaincomplain. uhm.. i think that's it. so long.
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whenever i take a drink, my sides hurt. i wonder if this is a bad sign.
.. oh look, my arm just fell off.
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